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MagicFingers
09-02-2007, 10:52 AM
For anyone who is morbidly obese, they will truely understand this. This is more important to have people understand what we as morbidly obese individuals face on a daily basis before during and after gastric bypass surgery.

Life of the Morbidly Obese

I know this is long but it is worth the read. It is something that I hold very dear to me and it explains a lot about myself. I finally hit the century mark and everything this says has been true for me.


LISTEN TO THE LIFE OF THE MORBIDLY OBESE

LISTEN to the embarrassment we encounter in our every day life. The
name-calling, stares, rude comments and looks of disgust we endure
battling the last acceptable form of discrimination. People we meet
that give us a far wider berth than we need when passing us on the
street, in the hall…in life. Afraid that somehow our disease of
obesity might be contagious.

LISTEN to our apprehension as we expertly eye the chair. Will we break
it, or will we fit. Will we ever fit into life, as "normal" people
know it?

LISTEN to our agony as we just walk and perform the simple activities
of daily living on joints screaming in pain from incredible burden
they were never meant to carry.

LISTEN to the pain of our humiliation when ridiculed by a doctor
for "allowing" ourselves to get so fat. Realizing even the doctor's
office is not a "safe" place, we tend to neglect our heath even more.
Hey doctor, didn't you take an oath to help?

LISTEN to our hopelessness after being turned down over and over for a
job or promotion because we don't "match the corporate image" of the
person they envision for this position.

LISTEN to our guilt. Because of our size, we feel we've cheated those
we love out of the parent, spouse, child or friend we feel we
should've been. Our embarrassment has now become theirs as well.

LISTEN to our anticipation as we eagerly embark on yet another diet.
THIS will be the one. This time I WILL SUCCEED!

LISTEN to our frustration as once again we fail at another attempt to
lose weight, reinforcing once again our feelings of worthlessness,
failure and defeat.

LISTEN to our fear for what life holds if we don't have this surgery.
We try to ignore it, to stuff it down, but when we are brutally honest
with ourselves, we realize an early death is an almost certainty.

LISTEN to our indecision as we do extensive research, trying to
outweigh the risk of complications (up to and including death) versus
the chance of a new life. A chance to improve our health, move without
pain, play with our children, the opportunity to just "fit in" to society.

LISTEN to our indecision as we second-guess our decision to have
surgery. As we ask ourselves, "Should I try just one more diet?"…And
tell ourselves, "If I only had more willpower."

LISTEN to us as we eagerly meet with the surgeon, with our five-page,
single-spaced, list of questions in hand. Let down by the medical
profession in the past, can I really trust this person who looks at me
with compassion, as he assures me I'm a "good candidate" and he can
help? Please God, I want to believe him, tell me I'm not setting
myself up for failure once again.

LISTEN to our feelings of helplessness as we place our future in the
hands of an insurance company. Fully aware that with a simple denial
letter, all the work we have done to this point, may be pointless.
This surgery is not without cost, physical, emotional and monetary.

LISTEN to our joy as we open the long awaited "approval letter" or
obtain financing to make this dream a reality.

LISTEN to us as we grasp for a chance at improved health, of moving
with ease and just living life as a "normal" person.

LISTEN to our renewed hope of living long enough to see our children
grow up, get married, play with grandchildren and grow old alongside
our mate.

LISTEN to our fear as we roll into the surgical suite. The sights, the
smells, the needles, the faceless people behind the masks. Do you
care? Do you understand, or will you too make cracks about my weight
once I'm asleep? My life is now in your hands, please take care of me.
I have a brand new life ahead of me, and so much to live for.

LISTEN to the sigh of relief as we wake up in pain…but alive! Stand
up, walk a few steps, cough and deep breathe. Sure nurse, whatever you
say, I can handle it…because I'm alive!

LISTEN to our delight as the weight starts to drop off, realizing this
is for real. We are actually on the loosing side.

LISTEN our misery as the body we once knew so well, now betrays us
with nausea and vomiting when we attempt to eat.

LISTEN to our frustration as we attempt to do something as simple as drinking a
glass of water.

LISTEN to our panic at the first plateau or weight gain. As that
little voice inside tells us, "Once again I'm a failure."

LISTEN to us relax and let out our breath as we watch the numbers on
the scale edge down once again. Plateau over. Renewed hope. Maybe I
will make it after all.

LISTEN to our efforts to move as we slowly and painfully attempt to
exercise in a body that is still morbidly obese.

LISTEN to our confusion as our emotions wreck havoc with us. Why am I
crying? Why do I feel depressed? Why am I mean and snapping at the
ones I love? I don't like this person that has taken over my emotions.

LISTEN to our sense of accomplishment the first time we walk a mile.
It rivals the high of any runner completing their first marathon.

LISTEN to our depression when we realize we can no longer soothe our
emotions with food. We now have to learn to feel and deal with these
emotions.

LISTEN to our tears as we mourn the loss of that brief but satisfying
sensation of gratification we once obtained from
the "comfort foods" we can no longer have.

LISTEN to our obsession surrounding the scale, vitamins, protein
drinks and carb counts, determined not to fail "this time".

LISTEN to our sense of accomplishment as we pass up that calorie
laden, high carbohydrate treat, telling ourselves, "My new life is
sweeter than any dessert."

LISTEN to our elation as we reach that "century mark" that once seemed
so distant, but now is a reality.

LISTEN to our resolve to reach our goals. Moving the weight on the
scale down another notch, reaching a new "century" of numbers, wearing
the dream outfit and attaining our "goal" weight.

LISTEN to the gratefulness in our hearts as we thank our surgeon for
not only their technical skills, but equally important, their
understanding and compassion for the morbidly obese. Thank you doctor
for the opportunity to rejoin society and live life.
LISTEN to our amazement as we come to the realization that "reaching
goal" wasn't the most important thing in life. It was the lessons we
learned, the friends we made and the sense of accomplishment we gained
along the way.

LISTEN, don't talk, don't give advice, don't judge, just listen.

And then, maybe then, you will start to understand the life of a
morbidly obese person.

KelBear
09-02-2007, 11:02 AM
Wow.. that was very good.. thanks MagicFingers! Hope you are having a good day!!

MagicFingers
09-02-2007, 11:04 AM
I am thanks. Oh and the TANK looks awesome in my house.

KelBear
09-02-2007, 11:18 AM
Good.. I am glad you like it.. in a way I am gonna miss it.. it was beautiful.. just didn't have the time anymore!!

MagicFingers
09-02-2007, 12:07 PM
My cats love it to....Its better then kitty TV its Kitty big screen tv!

A*lil*Loopy
09-04-2007, 04:29 PM
I almost cried when I read that. It's me but without surgery or any hopes of it. My weight is a result of medication and I wish I had options, but there are none. I choose to make light of it and smile even though it sucks most days.

I'm breathing, and I'm on this side of the grass, so it's a good day for me every day.

*Angel*
09-04-2007, 07:10 PM
Thats really a good read

MagicFingers
09-09-2007, 10:40 PM
I'm glad you guys enjoyed it...or at least took something away from it.